Project on BBB 21: "I’ve lost a lot in my life, but there it all came at once"

project, 35, took stock of his life when recalling rejection at Big Brother Brasil 21 (he received 91.89% of the votes), and reflected on the worst phase of his life in the last year. The rapper said that participating in the reality intensified his mental health problems.

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To the Or Balloon, he evaluates: “I knew that “Big Brother” was like that, and I don’t blame anyone but myself. I couldn’t understand that the time there wouldn’t be enough for people to see that there are no angels and demons inside, but human beings . And I’m too impulsive.”

I’ve lost a lot of games in my life, but there it all came at once. I lost the grandmother I was raised by, a dog and a cat. I lost friendships, fans, contracts and prestige, I lost a good part of the foundation that took me 20 years to build. You feel wronged, it’s like a hurricane has passed.

To vent about his frustrations, he composed the song “Volta”, where he summarized everything he felt. A snippet of the song even says “my ego makes me lose my way / my humility makes me ask for forgiveness” and “I heard that I was canceled / your cancellation today I will cancel”. The musician also recalls the time when he felt negative energy. “When I left the house, I still had a lot of negative energy. I was writing and I was kind of angry, or very poor. I had to wait for time to pass. I was feeling totally defeated.”

He continued: “I’ve had depression and I can say: if it weren’t for my wife and daughter, I might not be here now. But after all, I gained followers, contracts, publicity, things that didn’t happen to me in rap. I managed to humanize my image. I danced axé, put on makeup, played, did everything and a lot of people saw it. Today I can appreciate the BBB. When I left the house, I just thought: ‘Man, what did I go there to do? ‘”, account. Less present on social networks, the husband of Date Contro and father of Marieva, he says he’s trying to balance himself.

“Because you can’t not be on the networks, it’s my job. Today I have to make an effort to be online, to make the stories, to show content to the crowd, the fans yearn for that. day, like me here at home frying an egg. I’m the type who follows the show on Instagram. I can’t say that when “BBB 22″ starts I won’t get excited and watch it, but I find it difficult. Now I have another perspective of all this, it is impossible to judge anyone”, completed Projota.

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